Okay, so, I’ve been messing around with this whole “intoxicating love” thing, and let me tell you, it’s been a wild ride. It all started when I stumbled upon some stuff online about how love can be like an addiction. It got me thinking, you know?
So, I started digging deeper. I read a bunch of articles, some academic, some just random blog posts. It was all pretty interesting. They talked about how when you’re in the early stages of love, your brain is flooded with all these feel-good chemicals. It’s like being on a natural high. But then they also talked about how this can become addictive, like, you get hooked on that feeling. This is kinda scary, right?
Then, I decided to observe my own relationships, past and present. I started journaling about my feelings, trying to see if there were any patterns. Was I chasing that initial rush? Was I staying in relationships that weren’t good for me just to avoid feeling “withdrawal”? It was a bit of a mess, to be honest. I felt all over the place, you know, not really sure.
- First, I noticed that I did tend to get really swept up in the beginning of a relationship. All those butterflies, the constant thinking about the other person, it was intense.
- Then, I realized that I had stayed in some relationships longer than I should have, even when things got, well, toxic. Was it because I was addicted to the idea of love? Or was it just fear of being alone? It’s a mess to find out the reason.
- I also started paying more attention to how I felt when a relationship ended. It wasn’t just sadness, it was like a physical craving for that person, that feeling.
So, I talked to some friends about it. Some of them got it, others thought I was overthinking things. But it was helpful to get different perspectives. I even considered seeing a therapist, just to get a professional opinion. But I haven’t done that yet. It is a big step for me.
After all this, I’m still not sure what to make of it all. But I think I’m starting to understand myself a little better. I’m trying to be more mindful of my feelings and not just chase that initial high. I’m trying to build healthier relationships, based on something more than just a chemical rush.
It’s a work in progress
I’m definitely not an expert on this, and I’m still figuring things out. But I wanted to share my experience because I think it’s something a lot of people can relate to. Love is complicated, and it’s okay to be confused. Just try to be honest with yourself and don’t be afraid to ask for help if you need it. The most important thing is to take care of yourself and not just following the feelings.
